Category: Psychosis

  • The Somatics Trap

    The Somatics Trap

    I’m still doing fine, but have had to go up on my medicine because I started doing “too” well, if you know what I mean (hello – mania!). I got really productive there for a couple of weeks, and then I got too excited about that to really enjoy the fruits of my labor. I […]

  • Medication

    Medication

    I’ve recently gone way up on my medication, almost doubling my antipsychotic, and my life has returned to the normal it was 10 years ago. Who would have thought that going up on medicine could be so transformational. My mom got me a beautiful sapphire ring for Christmas and I have made a rule to […]

  • Watching my wellness with Kay Redfield Jamison

    Watching my wellness with Kay Redfield Jamison

    The hardest thing about mental illness is the beginning of life with it, which for me took place in my late 20’s. The issues stem from this, and Kay Redfield Jamison talks about this in her book An Unquiet Mind: when we get well again, we don’t realize that we can also get ill again, […]

  • The Rabbit Hole: Reading 19th-Century Literature

    The Rabbit Hole: Reading 19th-Century Literature

    If you can at all avoid it, please consider avoiding the rabbit hole and staying on the surface of things. Depth doesn’t always yield accuracy; in fact, it often yields projection. Allow me to explain. Mental health issues, especially schizophrenia, have to do with a system of thoughts that become interlocked and in which a […]

  • Book Review: Treating Psychosis: A Clinician’s Guide

    Book Review: Treating Psychosis: A Clinician’s Guide

    I have been reading books on mental health written for professional practitioners. NOT for psychiatrists, but for therapists. They are therapeutic. Ones for psychiatrists are very very depressing and I don’t recommend it. I’ll be sharing details from ones that are helpful. I bought these books a little while back in an urge to commit […]

  • Stretching Helps Combat My Medication’s Side Effects

    Stretching Helps Combat My Medication’s Side Effects

    I wrote several weeks ago about how I went up on my medicine because Spring is hard for me. I also mentioned that Spring is hard for a lot of other people with mental health conditions. In fact, it is one of the more dangerous times. A lot of people don’t realize this. One of […]

  • Reading about Schizophrenia

    Reading about Schizophrenia

    I started suffering from schizotypal symptoms in 2011 after being traumatized by a man who was in authority over me. I didn’t realize that trauma could form such a lasting and hidden wound as delusions, which hide their medical reality from the sufferer and seem like life is something that it is not. That you’re […]

  • Don’t Be Afraid to Take More Meds

    Don’t Be Afraid to Take More Meds

    I just did, and wondered whether I might not be alone, that winter’s end brings about mood swings. In fact, Kay Redfield Jamison writes about the particular danger of spring. So just take more medicine if you need. Accept that you need it if you do, and remember you won’t have to be on this […]

  • Growth

    Growth

    Mental health is stigmatized in the church. People criticize my religious experience as being an outcropping of mental illness. Meanwhile, other people’s mental illnesses hinder people from being able to experience the God they already worship. People might lack assurance of their salvation and worry about their soul. One man with schizophrenia wrote that he […]

  • Acceptance? Or Aspiring to Wellness?

    Acceptance? Or Aspiring to Wellness?

    There’s a dialectic between acceptance of my illness and my aspiration to wellness that frequents mental health memoirs and I’m wondering today when it was that I realized that sometimes wellness is acceptance. I feel like my mental illness is like a bicycle that was chained to a tree and the tree grew over it, […]